i'm in a really pissy mood right now....i really wish i was in surry or at amber's, cuz i always have fun in surry, and 2nite is peabody's, and i wanna go....i seriously need something 2 loosen me up after what happened in rehearsal 2day.....it was the rehearsal from hell....one of my friend's dad is in the hospital b/c he fell 10 stories 2day. she came in crying, and that's when i found out what happened. it's a miracle he's still alive. and what's even more a miracle is that he didnt hit his head or neck when he fell. please keep him in your prayers. then another one of my friends got really sick during rehearsal and threw up. so i hope he's feeling better. that's all the really sad news. then this is what made me in a really crappy mood. i had 2 deal with a really unprofessional person that i had 2 dance with 4 the waltz in the opera, and i head 2 keep telling him that we still hafta dance. everytime fischer would stop 2 fix something, he would start talking 2 ppl, brush his hair, hafta spit out the gum that he wasnt supposed 2 have in the 1st place (duh....ur singing in this opera and gum and singing dont mix!!!) and he wasnt paying attention 2 anything! then when someone would mess up a line or staging, he would groan and make a big stink about it, when he has 2 go over the SAME FREAKING THING 20 times (well.....actually that's an exaggeration...it's more like 5 to 10 times). but still....he has no right 2 get angry when the majority of the time, he's messing up. it just makes me soooo angry!!! and i really dont mean 2 sound like i have a rod up my ass, but i'm just in a really bad mood. we're down 2 the wire....2 weeks till opening, and we're still dealing with people who dont know the material. yeah.....i know i'm one 2 be talking....i'm not completely off book....but there's one song i dont know...and that's because i've been out of school for 2 and 1/2 weeks since i've been sick. and i'm learning it really quickly. but the thing is, i'm just one person...and i havent been there. when ppl who HAVE been there dont know what they're supposed 2 do, that really pisses me off. i've always been someone who's taken everything i do in gsa seriously. i pour my heart into every minute of it. music is my life, and i'd be lost without it. but i feel that ppl who dont take gsa seriously dont really need to be there. b/c it's just bringing the department down. and i'm sick of seeing ppl who b.s. their way through everything there. the reason someone goes 2 gsa is because they have talent. and it really bugs me 2 see them not live up 2 it. i'm just so fed up with ppl not living up 2 their potential.